The question is what did you feel you were missing that you wanted a beer was is that you absolutely adore beer and would brew it yourself or did you have a psychological perhaps subconscious that you remember the effect? Just curios. I have been in recovery for 29 years cumulative years and relapsed thinking I could manage it and I had processed all my ugly patters from the past. I was drinking just as I was in two weeks with all the old behaviors, compulsions and justifications. Of course no one gets to tell another what their choices should be. We bear those alone but of course there are many associated consequences. Good luck keep us posted about your experiment 💕