I was bullied as well competitive bullying. In my home I was the girl full of light fun humor and I love. It was those qualities that were shut down in me surrounded by family and a cultural norm that being mean, cynical, gloomy, critical was somehow cool. I attracted the same energies in the outer world that I was experiencing at home. Love was rejected and ridiculed. I was the “dumb blonde” that never shut up. In conscious and unconscious ways I shut me down and became like them to fit in and hoped for some morsel of love and acceptance. The journey as you said is about going through it which pushes us to that opening later down the road where we untangle and disregard all those lies that we’re the wounds of my family and ancestors and not mine. “Know thy self” has been my mantra for many years and I still do that exploration but now from a place of curiosity and love for myself. All of the healings and change laid the foundation for my service in the world as s teacher and healer. While I had many a tantrum about how tough it was and all the “why me”s. I now know the purpose and I wouldn’t change a thing. So let’s celebrate our badass selves just as we are. We chose it and we can own it ! 💕