I came up in a family without a father two brothers and a deeply insecure, co dependent mother who praised everything about them including the size of their dicks. Omg can you imagine the hell. My mothers self loathing was projected onto me via constant shaming, criticism, questioning of my every decision and fierce competition. I bend over backwards to make her see what a loving soul I was and what a great daughter while my equally insecure brothers yelled at her, took advantage by living w her as adult men, expressing their impatience and frustration, stealing from her and expecting her to do their laundry and have dinner on the table. Yet I was the target, you can’t make this shit up. Being witness to this I became a strong empowered woman who takes no shit from mediocre white men. Grow up guys, not attractive. Thank you!