Ari thank you so much for detailing my life path!!!
Yes it has been excruciating for a very long time that is not to say that I haven’t had joy felt freedom connection to spirit, etc. but the last two years outside of when I got sober @ 28 has been absolutely, so profoundly difficult just filled with crisis and loss and betrayal and grief and rage isolation feeling ostracized from family and friends rejected abandoned. I was recently evicted from my home. My two cats are in foster care at the moment my mother let me stay at my childhood home for a month and then my brother sister-in-law her mother (they live with my elderly mother) and my mother literally kicked me out with my cats, knowing that I had nowhere to go and no money. it was a cut to my heart and a betrayal that I could barely process and fathom, I wept to the depths of my soul. The human condition we all suffer in these ways. I believe although it’s not always easy to stay grounded in this knowing that some of us have come to process this on behalf of everyone so that so many can move from 3-D to 5-D. I often feel like everyone else is living their best life. I live in an affluent community and I am an active member of AA. I have always spoken with integrity and complete openness, which I imagine is healing for many but it absolutely is ego crushing to admit where I have landed. we all work very hard to sound good look good and not show any true vulnerability. My life experiences have literally burned my ego in the divine crucible
I always felt such compassion for the people of our world that suffer in silence in these ways whose lives do not take off because their traumas have grounded them.
I am currently homeless living at times in my car, friends have helped with hotel rooms but that is exhausted. I did have two relatively successful businesses. I studied with a healing teacher for 12 years to really understand the “why” to all the challenges
It is definitely been a hermit journey the whole life despite my outgoing, optimistic personality, which many people are drawn to, but I largely feel alone but especially the last six months, I have always known I was being prepared for something extraordinary but I’m also 60 so a joke with my guides like OK guys it’s time let’s do this. My extraordinary hard won service tool is in public speaking. spirit, love and light pour out of me when I’m speaking with people. There is nothing I adore more in this world. Nothing that I am more passionate about, but I also have had the difficulty and reluctance to conform, and to make consistent money as well as move through the protective hold from my sub conscious and inner child.
Thank you so much for your reassuring words. This is a very pivotal time on the planet for all of us and this is why we came! 💝💝💝